Today I started the cycle again:
"I should blog."
"No. I don't have anything to blog about."
"I know. Life is terrible."
"Just blog you IDIOT!"
So I decided what the hey? I am just going to blog, and if everyone gets infected with my January blues I am sorry. January is the second worst month of the year. Want to know the first? The absolute worst month is April. Mostly due to allergies, and the stress of school, and the depression of wet spring mornings.
Wow. This is a depressing post! My vicious cycle had a point..
But do you know what I do to cheer myself up? Lots of things!
1. Whose Line is it Anyway?
That old TV show from the 90's? Yep! If you need a laugh I recommend looking up some of those videos on YouTube. If it weren't for Drew Carey I would have committed suicide many winters ago.
2. Remembering summer
Sometimes all it takes is a memory. Lately I have been thinking about a day this summer when Kath and I went to my job interview in Salt Lake, and afterwards spent the day wandering around City Creek with a handful of greasy pizza and then going to my favorite place in the city, the cemetery. We walked pretty much all over that cemetery and sweat through all our clothes because it was so hot. Here is a song I love that pretty much just sums that whole day up!
A dreaded sunny day
so I meet you at the cemetery gates
Keats and Yeats are on your side
A dreaded sunny day
so I meet you at the cemetery gates
Keats and Yeats are on your side
while Wilde is on mine
So we go inside and we gravely read the stones
all those people all those lives
where are they now?
with the loves and hates
and passions just like mine
they were born
and then they lived and then they died
seems so unfair
and I want to cry
You say: "ere thrice the sun done salutation to the dawn"
and you claim these words as your own
but I've read well, and I've heard them said
a hundred times, maybe less, maybe more
If you must write prose and poems
the words you use should be your own
don't plagiarise or take "on loans"
there's always someone, somewhere
with a big nose, who knows
and who trips you up and laughs
when you fall
who'll trip you up and laugh
when you fall
You say: "ere long done do does did"
words which could only be your own
and then you then produce the text
from whence was ripped some dizzy whore, 1804
A dreaded sunny day
so let's go where we're happy
and I meet you at the cemetery gates
Oh Keats and Yeats are on your side
A dreaded sunny day
so let's go where we're wanted
and I meet you at the cemetery gates
Keats and Yeats are on your side
but you lose because Wilde is on mine
3. Food
Maybe not the healthiest option, but usually effective. Some days I just have to stop by a store and pick up some chocolate or salty Cheetos or a crispy chicken sandwich. I think maybe this weekend I will try and make a pie!
4. Spending Time with the Kiddos
I think I need to spend more time playing with kids in winter or else I forget to have fun. Hopefully someday I might be able to babysit Evie and Will. Luckily I got an awesome new Primary class and I can already tell it is helping me. I look forward to playing and laughing with my class this week:)
Well, that's all for now folks! I am feeling better already thinking of all these good things. I am glad I can blog about depressing things from time to time.
How did we get to be so much alike? I have been feeling the same way lately. Winter is soooo hard for me! I just want to go sit in the warm sun somewhere, or plant some flowers. You are welcome to come over and hang out anytime.
ReplyDeleteOh Thanks Becky. I will probably take you up on that:) Thanks for visiting me at work too!
ReplyDeleteOh my goodness I seriously almost cried about that stupid cemetery memory. That is one of my happiest memories too! haha It's so random and insignificant but it just sticks in my mind. January blues are the worst. And I agree about April, though it's close between March too. I hate march.
ReplyDeleteOh Kath I am glad you remember it as vividly as I do! For some reason I feel like that day was some sort of threshold to the rest of our lives... Maybe I am reading too much into it? haha.
ReplyDeleteReading these comments made me happy. You guys are the best.
ReplyDeleteWhich cemetery? The one in the avenues? My brother is buried there ... it's a beautiful cemetery.
I'm sorry you are feeling depressed. Let me know if I can help?
Leia- Yes the one in the avenues. It is indeed very beautiful!
ReplyDeleteMegan- I don't think you are reading too much into it. It led to a new chapter of things so to speak. I remember we were laughing because we went to the cemetery, then went to the mall, and at the mall realized we only wanted to be at the cemetery! haha. We are not normal.
Haha too true Kath! But we are history majors, we are allowed to creep around old places, thinking about days long past:)
ReplyDeleteCan I creep around old places with you guys? I'm a history major too now! J/k. I agree with you about January. I would probably hate April too except that my birthday is in April and so is Malia's so it was always a party month growing up. Two of my best friends in high school had April birthdays too so that only made it better. February is the closest to terrible January for me. School has helped me beat the blues and also Downton Abbey and some records I bought at DI. :)
ReplyDeleteYay! Come creep with us:) I am sorry if I am a downer on your birthday... April just has that effect on me ha! But I am glad you commented
DeleteNo, I totally get it. I'd hate April too if I didn't have a birthday to look forward to. It dangles summer in front of you on some days just to snatch it away the next day when it rains. :)
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